Sunday, March 28, 2010

Getting there

If I had blogged this morning, it would have looked something like this:

Holy crap, Sam, why won't you just sleep through the night?!? All the other babies are doing it! Can't you see what you're doing to us??? etc . . .

Instead I went on F.aceb.ook (the lazy blogger's best friend) and posted that I was so proud that Sam has mastered rolling from his tummy to his back.

That's right, I focused on the positive. I was bleary-eyed and exhausted. I waited for the kettle to boil, jealous that it was Dad's morning to sleep in. But instead of giving in to my frustration (as I had at 7 am when, after 6 wakings since bedtime and an unsuccessful attempt to convince Sam to sleep just-a-little-longer in bed with us, I tossed his rattly stuffie across the room then smiled at him and got up for the day) . . . instead of handing my entire day over to that frustration, I set it aside and chose to focus on the good stuff:

I have a full day ahead to be productive and spend time with my beautiful little family. And these earlier morning hours when the neighbourhood and my house are still quiet, are so special and memorable. Sam is very much a morning baby - he has lots to say, lots to fill me in on when he's been asleep for a while. He is full of smiles and giggles that are just for me in these moments while I wait for the kettle to boil. These tiny moments that I don't have to share with anyone else. No matter how rough a night we've had, all is forgotten when he flashes those truly joyful innocent morning smiles.

More than that, I remind myself that he is a healthy, loved, and most important of all, a present baby. He is here with us after so long and so much hope. I am grateful for every waking - and sleeping - moment with him.

More even than that . . . I win brownie points from Dad for letting him sleep in. Tomorrow morning it will be my turn :)


But back to now. After raging this morning about when-will-this-kid-ever-sleep-more-than-3-hours-in-a-row-OMG-it's-been-6-months-and-I'm-so-freakin'-tired!!!! . . . after all that . . . Sam has been in bed for 4 hours and 15 minutes with only small peeps that have not required our attention. It's almost midnight, we've had a lovely evening with friends, homemade pizza, and wine. I should be in bed. I should be taking advantage of this.

But no. I decide to sit here, bleary-eyed, and blog. Because that's how I roll. So I guess I kind of deserve to be tired.

Oh - there's the boy now. Dad is up to bat first, I'm on deck. Time to brush my teeth and hope for another 4 hour chunk after this???

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

More Than a Village 2

They spelled my name wrong, but there I am again. How is it that they asked David to be a regular guest blogger, but I'm the one doing the writing? Probably because I like the attention :)

Monday, March 22, 2010

Things we learn . . .

Making your own baby food is nice. Wholesome.

But steaming apples kind of makes your kitchen smell like hot urine.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Thursday, March 18, 2010


If you ever need a reason to feel grateful for your child's health (or the health of anyone you love), read this blog.

If you are frustrated because it's 3 am and you are up feeding your baby for the 3rd time already tonight (Sam!), and you think you must be the most unlucky mother out there, read this blog.

If you haven't had a good cry lately (for reasons of sorrow or for the amazing kindness and generosity of friends and strangers), read this blog.

My heart goes out to Anaya and her family and friends. This family is enduring what none should, and they are doing it with love and a positive attitude (despite what they must feel in their hearts sometimes).

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Fun with Solid Foods (Part 2)

Sam has been having cereal for a week now. So Mum & Dad decided it was time to introduce something a little more fun.

We like avocado and it's full of good fatty acids, so we mushed up a very small amount and mixed it with the cereal. Ha! Sam managed to find most of the tiny green bits and spit them back out. It must have taken his system a while to figure out what to do with this rest because he didn't poop for almost 24 hours, and when it finally happened, the bits he did swallow showed up in his diaper today - completely undigested!

The aroma hinted of guacamole :)

No pictures.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

"Solid" Food??

Sam started "solids" today. I say this with a smirk because I'm not sure what exactly is solid about runny rice cereal. Seriously, it's like the most watered down boxed mashed potatoes you've ever seen. It looks like breast milk that has been left out in the sun just a little too long.

And you know what? Sam freakin' loved it! He didn't quite know what to do with the first spoonful, but he figured it out right quick!

We started early after visiting our doctor today and finding that Sam has dropped even further and is now in the 5th percentile for his weight despite giving him all the breast milk he wants. Time to add proper food! Such as it is.

Next week we'll try yams or bananas or something, and I'll be sure to post pictures of the fun and mess that ensues!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Your 6 Month Review

Mr. Samuel B. Tilgner

It's true that you have only been with Mum and Dad Corp. for 5 months and 1 week, however, we feel that now would be a good time to review your performance thus far in order to identify any issues that require attention before your 6 month probationary period ends.

Firstly, you are definitely adorable in appearance and behaviour. Additionally, your abilities to steady your head and sit up (like such a big boy!) almost unaided are certainly impressive. Your hand-eye coordination is coming along nicely and we are particularly amused by the enthusiasm with which you play with your feet. Most notable are your advancements in communication which (to our great delight) now includes raspberries and - finally - laughing!

Having said all this, Sam, we feel there is one area in which you are lacking.


Frankly, Sam, your efforts in this regard are bush league. We at Mum and Dad Corp. feel we have made every accommodation to promote growth and development of this skill, nevertheless, you continue to phone it in. Despite our gentle encouragement for you to learn to fall asleep on your own (for naps and at bedtime), you continue to insist on nursing to sleep and scream in protest when this is denied to you.

THEN! When you do fall asleep, you take great pains to be unpredictable about the length of time in which you will remain so. Specifically, you like to wake up approximately 20 minutes after the Mum has fallen asleep. Sometimes, to really keep us on our toes, you choose to wake just as the Executive Directors of Mum and Dad Corp. are about to engage in an important meeting. We do not appreciate this.

And seriously dude, 3 hours in a row is simply not enough. It should go without saying that anything less is also not acceptable. Your personal best of 5 hours and 45 minutes was wonderful, but has never been repeated and therefore will not be considered when evaluating your current performance. In other words, kid, what have you done for me lately?

Finally, your inability to recognize 5 a.m. as a time for sleep rather than play is also reflecting poorly on your review at this time.

If you don't start bringing your A game very soon, we are going to have to let you go. This would be unfortunate because we've really grown quite fond of you, but we have to keep the greater good of the Corporation in mind.

Thank you for your attention to this matter and we look forward to seeing some progress in the near future.

Mum and Dad

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Public Health Nurse: 1 - Dr. Jack Newman: 1 - Walk-in Clinic MD: 0

Ok, so granted this may seem a bit biased because I am a nurse. But seriously!

Our little Sam is a bit . . . little. When other moms see him at the park and comment on how cute he is (thank you) they always follow with "How old is he?" When we answer that he is (enter age here), the almost universal response is: "Oh, he's small!" This particularly annoys David who has come up with some terrific comebacks that I won't print here (and he has never actually said to a stranger, he just shares them with me later).

At 3 months Sam was right on target in the 50th percentile, but since then he has been slowly dropping on the curve and now at 5 months is only in the 10th. In 6 weeks he has only gained approximately 1 pound, when he should have gained closer to 3 or more.

The Current Issue:
Over the weeks, the nurses at the Public Health Unit have offered support and advice to improve my milk supply by pumping, etc. and to improve Sam's focus while feeding by removing distractions, etc. But this has not been working well enough. So today we talked about fenugreek and blessed thistle and dom perignon :)

This afternoon I went to our doctor's office to discuss the best course of action. Our regular doctor was not there, so we saw the guy covering walk-ins. Mistake #1. But the only one I made.

Here are a list of the mistakes he made:

1) Did not introduce himself. Minor error, but unpro.

2) The extent of his assessment was
- asking me what the problem was,
- asking me if I'm breastfeeding,
- asking me what I wanted to do.
No questions about my or Sam's general health. No questions about other things that can decrease milk supply, like if I am on any medications or if I could possibly be pregnant (no and NO!). It also didn't seem to matter how much Sam weighs. That's right. He didn't WEIGH the baby!!!

3) When I asked about the herbal remedies, he didn't know anything about them (big shocker) and could only contribute that "herbs can have multiple drug reactions" (since he didn't ask if I'm on any medications this seems like a bit of a useless statement).

4) "All I can suggest is supplementing (with formula) or Domperidone". Ok - I get that many MDs are not familiar with herbal and alternative remedies. No problem. But apparently he didn't know much about the pharmaceuticals either. When I asked how long it would take for the medication to start working . . . he didn't know. If only there was some way he could have found out for me . . . like some kind of computerized device linked to some kind of online database for physicians . . . similar to the computer he was typing up my prescription with. Hm. Too bad.

So I took the Rx and decided to go home and educate myself (via the Interweb and Dr. Jack Newman).

Back to Sam:
I've decided to do it all. I'm going to take the fenugreek and the blessed thistle AND the dom perignon in the hopes that Sam can crank his weight up, start sleeping "through the night", and move back into his own room before I give up from exhaustion and pour formula down his throat. (Just kidding, Robin)